I’ve been sitting under the anointing in the “Days of Glory” conference in East London.
On Saturday night, Apostle Maldondo taught on “Fathers”. I had a blessing as a Father, but knowing God can do anything if you open your heart, I said to God, deal with whatever you want to. I just want your presence!
I fell to my knees and started sobbing the presence of God was so strong!
I’ve been battling with a relationship in my life where I have been blatantly rejected repeatedly over and over. Every couple of months I have a outburst and then I bring it back to the cross and ask God to take care of it. This time He did.
After writing the post “It is Finished”, I’ve been bringing a lot of areas to closure in my life and this was one of the areas I’d asked God to deal with because it was just to big for me to deal with.
That Saturday night, He gave me “revelational” knowledge about what happened on the cross. He told me He rejected Jesus when He turned away from looking at him. And my heart cried “Why?” And He said because Jesus was covered in sins, and sin cannot stand in God’s presence! I mentally knew all this, but it was still a reality that I was rejected, and now, so was Jesus, and at that point, in my perspective, we were both STILL rejected! I still missed Gods point!
But the picture changed as fast as the thoughts were going through my mind and I saw God turning His face away from Jesus on the cross, and in slow motion, the space that He was looking towards started been illuminated and I saw God looking at me.
It took a couple of minutes and God said to me, “I rejected my Son because I chose to accept you” and once again the reality that I got chosen above Jesus in that day, just broke me, and healed me in the same instant.
I got up off the floor and I knew the Spirit of Rejection was broken over me forever. Never to ever raise its head again because God rejected His Son to accept ME!
Now I’m not just healed, I am made whole!
Thank you Jesus!